I feel so stupid. For kicking up a fuss with bby on Wednesday after UT which led to both of us not getting KOI as planned and both of us quarreling over text which in turn led to me crying like some bitch at th staircase just outside my house and skipping school ytd to sleep away th puffy eyes. Plain bullshit. And then ytd, I did th same whole thing over again. Fuck me. So now I don't know when is th next time I can get to spend long hours with him. Most probably next week. Goddddd, how am I going to spend my weekends? I used to be able to survive weekends, but I don't think I can this time round. I wished I could turn back time to Wednesday. Where I'll meet bby at Clementi as planned to get KOI and then spend time together. And then on Thursday, I'll not come to school because of th mad faci, and study for bloody Math re-test later. Math re-test later, and I didn't bring my calculator cause I took it out thinking I wouldn't need it for MCB ytd, but it turns out I skipped school, and left out my calculator on my table today.
Yes mom. I love you always. :')
Bby's sister is getting engaged tmr, and I'm gonna pass him my DSLR later in th evening so that he can take pretty pretty pictures.
Bby, I'm really really sorry for everything I did th past few days. I don't know what came over me. I hope you remembered how I told you that cause you didn't call me b for 24 hours, i thought you didn't love me anymore. And I'll always remember your reply, 'just because i didn't call you b doesn't mean i don't love you anymore k?' I bet you're thinking how silly I am to think that. We sound so distant now, after th quarrel on Wednesday. We've never had such a serious argument in th past 7 months we've been together. I'm really really sorry. I hope I don't have to wait till next week to spend time with you properly. And yes, we're gonna get KOI next week. For sure. I promise I won't kick up a fuss again.
Muhd Syarafuddin, I trust you with all my heart and I love you. ♥
ps: sorry for all th long sentences, cannot be bothered to type them properly.
