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You said you'll spend new year's eve with me, we'll stay outside after counting down. You promised. Yet you told me last week, 'B, i spending new year's eve with my family and relatives uh.' You didn't say in th beginning that you weren't sure. Okay, for Christmas you did. But you didn't say you weren't able to spend New Year's Eve with me. I was so disappointed in you. I've been waiting for this day for like ever. It's okay if i don't get to see you on th last day of 2010, it doesn't matter anymore. Now, i don't even get to see on th first day of 2011. What's this? That's why i told you th other time, 'Don't make promises you can't uphold. Cause you'll only hurt me more.' How am i supposed to tell you you're th reason why i'm so sad spending new year's eve at home? We're supposed to be somewhere out there now, you giving me a kiss saying 'i love you' once th clock strikes 12. Enjoying th fireworks... I wanted to spend th last day of 2010 through to th first day of 2011 with you, by your side. I cannot believe i spent my first few moments of 2011 crying over not counting down with you. F U C K M Y L I F E . I don't know how much i can trust you anymore, rlly. I want so much to be with you right now, in your arms. You can only tell me, eat panadol, drink more water, sleep early when i told you i'm having a blocked nose. Rlly? That's all you can say? Sigh. Not once have you reflected on yourself. It's always my fault and everything. I shouldn't be doing this. I should be happy this year. And i guess you enjoy yourself more when you're not spending time with me. Sorry for everything. I rlly love you and i wish you'll stop doing this to me. ♥