I'm having mixed feelings about this. I'm feeling sad but somehow trying to pick myself up to remain best friends with someone you've been spending th past 7 months with, loving each other in a way more than friends would. right now, it's back to square one. loving him as your best friend and nothing more. I know this is not something I will do, staying friends with your ex. but this time, I will 'cos it was bound to be one of th things you have to face going into a relationship with your best friend.
it's all about moving on isn't it? same person in your life as he has always been for th past one year, different status yet again, minus th couple-y stuffs. no more goodbye kisses, no more cuddles, no more holding hands, no more hugs (maybe?), no more goodnight calls, no more spending TOO much time together after school as boyfriend/girlfriend, no one to celebrate my 18th birthday with. I guess th rest pretty much stays th same.
after all, it was mostly my fault things turned out to be this way. I should have been a better girlfriend, and everything. I'm convinced I'm meant to be #foreveralone, and not to be loved by someone else.
th feeling got worse over th night as we talked more about it. I swear I shouldn't have asked about our status. I was okay, but now I'm not. feeling th same ol' heartbreak shit.
whatever it is babe, still bestfwen. :) see you on th first day of school. I hope things stay th same - going to school together, lunch together occasionally, going home together minus th hugs and kisses, dinner together. I still love you as much. ♥