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this year's th first I've spent my birthday without a boyfriend since sec 4.
this year's th first I've spent my holidays lazing at home without a job.
this year's th first I've made so many new friends (OH, FOP, ISLP, CE activities).
this year's th first I've felt so so so happy in a relationship, with my best friend.
this year's th first I've missed someone so much, so badly, that it still hurts.