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I wonder what my plans are going to be like for my 18th birthday next month. are my friends going to celebrate it with me? or do I even have any. I know for sure I won't get any surprises like th past. it's like I don't think I'm worthy enough to have someone do that for me.

I miss my bestfriend. I miss talking to him about every little thing. it feels like we're drifting apart. we hardly talk now. told him how I felt last night and he assured me we'll still talk and I won't lose him as my bestfriend so long we're still talking. I don't want it to happen because I don't want to not talk to him for another 8 months again. that was a mistake before. I miss texting him, talking to him on msn and webcamming with him. I still love him, despite knowing he might have gotten over me alrdy. I don't know 'cos we've never talked about it. :/ I wonder if he'll forget my birthday like last year 'cos we weren't talking.

I miss hanging out with my family of 7. miss th whole bunch of them. alot.